Frustration

Wow, I can't tell you how long I have spent trying to get his technology to do what I wanted it to.  What happens when you think you have finally figured something out and just when you start to feel confident, a new twist?  Well, for me it takes many times to walk away, to take a deep breath and try to let go.  The challenge of course it that then I sit down and begin again.  By that I mean, I want to be able to move on.  I want to be content with not getting my way.  After many years of practice, I least know this is what would be a good approach.  Yet within minutes, I am back at the computer, back on the web, back trying to upload something to somewhere.  It seems so attainable to me in moment, and yet, because it seems to me there must be some small thing that I am missing, I must try one more time.

How do we get in our own way?  Today has been one of those days when there have been many details dealt with.  Today has been a good and productive day.  I have my health, most of  my sanity, and am blessed with many great people in my life.

At this point in my day I am here to let you know that I finally was able to let go of the project I was working on.  It is at this point in my day that I am reminded of an old friend that used to say that anyone could start their day over again.

In starting my day over again, I picked up the book:  Benedict's Way, by Lonni Collins Pratt and Father Daniel Homan, OSB

God often leads me to a book and then somehow in God's wonder I open to the very page I most need to read.  Let me share with you what I opened up to.

" Joy isn't something that simply happens to us.  Joy is a decision we have to make-or not.  You and I are responsible for whether or not we experience joy.  Joy isn't going to happen if we pamper ourselves.  Instead, we need ot consider what is preventing the joy.

There are a lot of thing that can choke joy,  but here are ten to think about:

1. Fear

2. Cynicism

3. Boredom

4.Low self-esteem

5.Taking life too seriously

6.Loss of wonder

7. Greed

8. Guilt

9.Bitterness

10.  Busyness"

 Gracious God thank for you for all the blessings of this day.  Thank you for the love of books, the love of music, and the love of art.  Thank you so much for loving me.  

Gracious God, Be there for all those known to you alone, that need to feel the loving power of your grace in body, mind and spirit.  

Gracious God, thank you that I can feel my frustration slipping out of my body(:  It is really all good.  Amen